Hard Decisions by Elaine © 2020

"Well Julie, you're all girl now," she said as she helped with my wound care. "Personally, I think you're mad but it's your choice. It’s time to dilate!"

I took the dilator and inserted it into my lubricated pussy, Surprisingly I found no resistance or pain.

"Next biggest one," she commanded, "have you been seeing a man already?"

This one was a little harder going in and I felt it touch my skin that used to be on the outside of my old love pole.

"Next one!" she sounded repetitive.

"You can't be serious," I said to Janine.

"Pretty serious," she said, "You know you'll close up again if you don’t. So, I applied KY jelly to the length of the dilator and slowly pushed it home.

I enjoyed my night with Jackie but all the time I was thinking of Jamie. Maybe it was his rejection that had made me want him more. Something I just couldn’t have.

That night though was special with Jackie as we reacted to each other the whole night through. Of course, we discussed our failed marriages and the lack of understanding that a spouse can have. My worry though was that she saw me as a replacement for Stanley who was still living on his own.

Jackie asked, "how do you feel about living here with me?"

"I'm flattered. But Jamie has asked me to move in with him. So that’s what I will do."


This story is dedicated to Stephanie Fortune, a real Post-op Transsexual who inspired me to write this story. She is living somewhere in the world as a woman and enjoying the self-feminisation of her body.