TO BE OR NOT TO BE - PART 4

"I'm 25 and I've been crossdressing since I was a freshman in college. I've been doing it a lot more lately, but hey, I don't know what I want. I'm just as confused as you are." I was surprising myself being this open with someone I didn't know that well.
"Well, I can tell you one thing, you sure do look good as one. If I didn't know it was you, I would have bet my car this afternoon that you were a real girl."
"Are you flirting with me, Mark?"
This embarrassed him. His cheeks turned rosy and he looked away real quick, pretending to look for the roach.
"Ha ha," I laughed. "I'm just teasing you. Come on, don't be embarrassed. This afternoon I got up in front of the group and let them see me as a girl. That's embarrassing."
"Even when you do it all the time?"
"I didn't say all the time."
"You know what I mean."
"I guess, but it's always been in private where I had some control. Never in public like this."
"Did Mel and Shari know? They must have or else they wouldn't have said anything."
"Yeah, I've dressed up with them a couple of times."
"Is there anything going on between those two, people are talking."
"They're just good friends. It's not like they are a couple or anything. They just get kind of crazy when they get together."
"How crazy is the question."
"Get your mind out of the gutter. What and if they do anything behind closed doors, is none of your business."
"You're right. Changing the subject, are you worried about stage fright?"
"The way I am starting to look at it is that every time I wear a dress, I am acting like someone else by pretending to be a girl. I'm hoping that will give me an edge."
"Interesting. Have you had a chance to dress since you've been here?"
"Honestly, yes, a couple of times."
"What did you do?"
"I went out shopping, shopping for props and other things."
"Get out."
"No, it's true."
"Nobody could tell you were a boy?"
"I'm not sure, maybe, but gentlemen were opening doors for me and a couple of guys actually hit on me," I had to laugh.